Traveling to Say Goodbye.

There is something about traveling and going new places that accentuate the fleeting nature of life: nothing lasts forever, and change is the only constant.

You visit a new place, and you immediately (or gradually) fall in love with the energy of the land, its people, its colors, its flavors. You fall in love with the birds singing, the sunset, and the sky. You in some ways, fall in love with life once again, partially because during those days you life life to the fullest, knowing your time in that place is finite.

And when we know something is finite, we tend to look at it differently. We take in and appreciate every moment.

So why do we not live our day to day lives in the same way?

The question: “How do I REALLY want to live my life?” is a question that has been in my heart since Christmas Day. Interestingly enough, I wasn’t traveling. I was doing laundry at home. The question came to me - not because I feel I’m dying. I don’t. But truly, we don’t know when our time here is up. We tend to take our time for granted. And I don’t want to take my time for granted. I don’t want to take my LIFE for granted. And I on that Christmas Day, I made a deicision. I want to create, I want to see the world around me with a grateful heart, and I want to see the magic around me, every day of my life.

And now, it seems like the Universe responded and life is teaching me how to do that in its own unique way. I knew that this trip to Mexico would reveal things and it would give me answers to questions I have been asking myself - but of course, I didn’t know what that would look like.

I am saying goodbye to an old version of myself.
I am saying goodbye to old beliefs coming to the surface, ready to be transformed.
I am saying goodbye to what may not support my soul’s path and expansion.
I said goodbye to the Sierra Sur, where I left a little piece of my soul (even though I know I’ll be back).
I said goodbye to the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen in Jocotepec.
I said goodbye to Maggie, our little doggie who we had to put down.

The sadness, pain and grief that come with saying goodbye have been so present. And that is in some way helping me get clearer with what I want my life to feel like. Seeing and embracing the fact that the things, people, animals and places we love will not be around forever is making me appreciate everything so much more. And I am deeply grateful for that, because when the time comes for me, or for someone I love, to go, I want to look back and say: I didn’t hold back. I felt, lived and loved fully, and who/what I loved will now live in my heart and soul forever.